Saturday, August 12, 2006

A Long Way From My Home

Am I truly as clueless and my ideas as nonsensical and worthless as I've been told they are by someone I respect? I know I'm not a smart man, but am I even stupider than I thought, even in one of those extremely limited areas where I thought I might at least not be stupid even if I know I'm not smart?

I ask this with sadness but not with despair. I ask it because I want to know, and not because I want to be flattered. In fact, I'm not asking anyone to answer my question. Nobody really can but I myself, if anyone can.

I don't feel depressed, but my mind and heart are in turmoil. I don't know what to say or do. I think of the song that Richie Havens made famous called Motherless Child. That's how I feel.

A long way from my home and with nothing more to say.

8 comments:

Finding Fair Hope said...

I suspect you've been visiting onecosmos again. Don't say you haven't been warned.

Counter Mag said...

I read your comment on onecosmos today and I am from countermag and I, like yourself, commented with a very respectable little post. I asked him if he could please clear up some things for me that were unclear and I had disagreed with, thinking perhaps I was wrong.
He then deleted my comment and went on to insult my intelligence. Then you posted shortly after a few of us from countermag did and we all completely agreed with you. You were sincere in your convictions and very intelligent in your content. If onecosmos or anyone is making you feel this way, I strongly urge you to step away or come back and stick to your guns with verocity, emotion and intellect much like you have been. I loved your comment. It was better than any I've seen on onecosmos. Don't let the gag drag you down. You're awesome! I think I may link you to countermag as well. Just comment there if you oppose.

Petey said...

Hey, don't despair. I know for a fact that Bob was banned from a number of moonbat blogs before he got the bright idea to start his own. You guys should do the same!

Tom said...

Get hold of yourself, man! Obviously, you are quite exceptionally intelligent.

Just put yourself in 'witness' mode and you should easily be able to tell that you have brains and magic.

Read the things you write. Note the reasoning, the logical steps and the flow, character and jaunty joyful way everything fits together.

Nagarjuna said...

Thank you all for your comments. As I've said before, I intended this blog to "nakedly reflect" as much of my being as I dare. Sometimes it reflects the light, and sometimes the darkness.

I don't believe that where I go or how people react to me there makes me feel the way I felt for a brief time yesterday. I do that to myself, and only I can stop doing it.

dr.alistair said...

the struggle for acceptance can be a tortuous affair.
who is the torturer?

Anonymous said...

Why in the name of all that is good do you punish yourself by going to that cesspool with all those knuckle draggers? Glutton for punishment maybe? They all deserve on another over there. I have been deleted more times than I can count there. Makes for good fun though, watching them implode.

Nagarjuna said...

I don't believe that that particular blog is a "cesspool." However, I've stopped reading or participating on it, because I have better things to do with my time and energy.